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|BONZE UNDER TORTURE||ALICE H. RICHARDSON|
|Master File Listing|
The average programmer writes 10 lines of code per day.
AnneRose Blayk averaged well over 30 lines per day over a 25-year career as a Network Systems Programmer and entrepreneur:
"You're getting the best!" - H. David Lambert, Director, Cornell Information Technologies / Network Resources
to the President and Vice-President of Millenium Computer Corporation, Jonathan Sacks and Joel Reiser, sometime in April 1994.
"How do you know when you're getting fucked?"
Could be you've been placing your reliance on "Too Much Data"
As opposed to "Reliable Informants"
In my lexicon, it is presumptuous and grandiose to use the terms, instruments and tools,
as synonyms not for bench-science apparatus, but for clinical tests. Clinical psychoendocrinology
and sexology are reliant for the most part on psychological tests. To call them instruments or tools
gives a false sense of mensurational accuracy.
- "Longitudinal Studies in Clinical Psychoendocrinology and Sexology: Methodology"
- p. 100 in "Venuses Penuses" - John Money PhD -
Bonze Anne Rose Blayk
+ 1977 BAR BLAYK Phi Beta Kappa - composite - small.jpg +
+ 1980-03-01 - Kevin Eric Saunders - AnneRose Blayk Statement of Interest for Cornell Sociology PhD program - signed.pdf +
+ 1985-1994 BARB - Kevin Eric Saunders - Cornell Business Card.jpg +
+ CIT name tag - Kevin Saunders Bonze Blayk - small.jpg +
+ 1995 databeast-Inc-card.jpg +
1990 - + Bonze Anne Rose Blayk - THIS IS THE REAL ME.jpg +
1994 - + Saunders-Bonze-phonebook-1994.jpg +
1994 - + bonzefest-sue-bonzie-14-33 - 851x315 - shifted.jpg +
2003 - + DSC00811 - Small Bedroom - Yo' ADU is DEF.JPG + - the contents of one of my daughter's drawers - taken 2013-10-29
2012 - + Certified Order for Bonze Anne Rose Blayk-1.jpg + - Change of Name
2012 - + Certified Order for Bonze Anne Rose Blayk-2.jpg + - Change of Name
+ 2000-04-29-BARB-Salary-History.jpg + for TCMH/OMH
+ 2000-07-21 DOWNLOAD.COM Telnet picks - dataComet.pdf + for TCMH/OMH
1985-1994 CORNELL + AnneRose Blayk - Cornell University Personnel Action Forms - 1985-1994.pdf +
1985-1994 CORNELL + AnneRose Blayk - Cornell Work History - Salary Increase Program - Employee Evaluation Letters - 1985-1992.pdf +
1994 MILLENNIUM + AnneRose Blayk - Millennium Computer Corporation Pay Stubs - 1994.pdf +
1995-2012 DATABEAST + databeast, Inc Historical Income Summary.png +
+ 1995 on - dataComet Invoices.pdf +
+ 2001 - TEMPERANCE NAZIS IN MEDICAL DRAG.jpg +
+ 2001-08-13 NASA Tech Conference Invitation for DATABEAST INC A Outside Fold.jpg +
+ 2001-08-13 NASA Tech Conference Invitation for DATABEAST INC B Inside Fold.jpg +
+ 2001-08-13 NASA Tech Conference Invitation for DATABEAST INC Left Inside Fold.jpg +
+ 2001-08-13 NASA Tech Conference Invitation for DATABEAST INC Right Inside Fold.jpg +
+ 1997 Kevin Eric Saunders - 97-019 - Certificate of Non-Responsibility - web.jpg +
1997-01-01 + Calendar - January-February 1997 - 600w.jpg +
1997-01-01 + Calendar - January-February 1997.jpg +
+ 2012-07-24 Bonze Anne Rose Blayk - CPL 330-20 Discharge Order - Judge Rowley.pdf +
+ 2012-09-07 - Bonze Anne Rose Blayk - Notice of Entry of Discharge Order.pdf +
2012-10-19 + Trazodone - "delusions" - The Essential Guide to Prescription Drugs 1985.html + Figure this out in 1997? too hard!
2012-10-19 + Trazodone - "delusions" - The Essential Guide to Prescription Drugs 1985.jpg +
2013-01-04 + DSM-IV - Differential Diagnosis of Psychotic Disorders.jpg +
2013-01-04 + DSM-IV Substance-Induced Psychotic Disorder - Diagnostic Criteria.jpg +
2013-11-28 + HYPOTHETICAL PERSONAL DEBT FROM HOSPITALIZATION - Screen Shot 2013-11-26 at 10.59.30 AM.png +
- On this date I finally owe ZERO dollars rather than $1,352,800 of the debt I ALONE owed - as a civil inpatient not qualified for Medicaid because "too rich!" - following being JAMMED UP by being dosed with PCP in 2003. The charges for this inordinately prolonged "hospitalization" had aged out past six years WITHOUT EVER HAVING BEEN BILLED. NOT ONCE!
(Six years is the legal deadline for suing for payment of a past-due debt in New York State.)
AnneRose Blayk came to intermittently suffer "acute psychotic states"… due to repeated poisonings!
After she interfered with a "COIN-OP"
"Cult Of IBM National Socialism OPeration" †
intended to undermine the integrity of the DES encryption algorithm used to secure passwords of agents of the State of Michigan using Single-Sign-On software developed for "Project MAIN"
(Millennium Computer Corp pay stubs: 790KB PDF)
Matthew 7:20 - Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them.
+ 1994-07-29 MAP DES #issues.txt - Screen Shot 2016-05-03.png +
+ 1994-07-29 bARB - Bonze AnneRose Blayk started to run into... - Bonze AnneRose Blayk - #DES issues.pdf +
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+ 2016-03-22 DSC02347 SSA QUIT rcvd GOOD - trimmed - signed.pdf +
+ 2016-07-16 barmayden - I QUIT - to Management Club SSA - Bonze AnneRose Blayk - 2016-05-08.pdf +
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1994-1996 + TESTIFY - SKH vs AMW - 1996 or 1994.jpg +
+ 1994-08-05 Susan's Birthday Letter - Happy Birthday to Me - web.jpg +
+ 1995-09-03 SKH SF Trip - LOVE LETTERS.pdf +
+ 1995-09 SKH - Postcards from the Edge - scrunched.pdf +
+ 1995-09 SKH - Postcards from the Edge - web.jpg +
+ 1995-11-21 - PHOENIX - web.jpg +
+ 1996-07-21 - prof. SF 29 Philadelphia ISO SM - Tara Belsare - Screen Shot 2014-06-25 at 12.35.03 PM.png +
+ 1996-02-14 Susan K Hamann - Mandelbrot Valentine - web.jpg +
+ 1996-05-12 MOTHER'S DAY with AnneMarie and Steve Gilsen.pdf +
+ 1996-07-21 Susan's Letter.jpg +
+ 1996-12-21 Ithaca Journal Monitor - Kevin Saunders DWI arrest - web.jpg +
+ 1996 F&CS Amari Meader - bonze blayk - COMPLETE.pdf +
+ 1996 Prescription receipts - 2011 scan - small.jpg +
+ 1996 Prescription receipts.jpg + commented
+ 1997-01-11 Dr. Sheiman ER.pdf +
+ 1997-01-13 Dr Magre - psoriasis.jpg +
+ 1997-01-17 McMasters DVM Amoxicillin for Berne.jpg + Bernadette was Susan's little calico kitty-kat
+ 1997-01-19 Fay's receipt for enemas : HIV test.jpg +
+ 1997-01-20 Dr. Jody Stackman.pdf +
+ 1997-01-31 bonze blayks Nervous System.pdf + Guess what? I prepared this document to put over one image! (Not atypically, for realizing one is in fact transsexual is ALWAYS a big deal?)
+ 1997-01-31 bonze blayk's Nervous System, Jean Saunders distro.pdf + - God is in the details. - bonze blayk citing Mies van der Rohe
+ 1997-02-03 SOTL - ANTHRAX.png +
+ 1997-02-03 SOTL - ANTHRAX web.png +
+ 1997-02-03 SOTL - SURGICAL ADDICTION.png +
+ 1997-02-03 SOTL - SURGICAL ADDICTION web.png +
+ 1997-02-06 Inside the trailer - The Scene of The Offense.jpg +
+ 1997-02-07 Ithaca Journal Police Watch - Trumansburg Man Arrested After Fire - web.jpg +
+ 1997-03-01 bonze blayk jail poetry - processed.jpg +
+ 1997-04-28 KES-bb - Medical History.pdf +
+ 1997-04-28 KES-bb - Symptoms and Stressors.pdf +
+ 1997-05-30 Dr. Lesswing - REPORT OF PSYCHOLOGICAL EVALUATION - markup export - remerged - signed.pdf +
+ 1997-06-14 Paul Thaddeus Povinelli PhD MCMI-III boilerplate markup - export - remerged - signed.pdf +
+ 1997-06-14 Dr. Leswing - Shipley Institute of Living Scale - Tara Belsare MD source for 160 IQ equivalent 2002-04.pdf +
+ 1997-06-23 Anne Marie Whelan - Order of Protection [with transcription] and Response by KES-bb.pdf +
+ 1997-10-23 - 2003-09-21 RRFU Core History and KES-bb Corrections 2-UP.pdf + Received in 2003 - Dating from 1997!? Who hacked this document out? I'd sure like to know! This document is formatted to be viewed in Two-Page View; my corrections also appear towards the end in their original form. Please note: throughout the following court hearings in which I had to defend myself from the perception that I am "routinely insane," I was ENTIRELY UNAWARE of this "life history" from which the "experts" drew their "information!" about me!
+ 1997-10-27 KES-bb to Susan Heagney 0 - Letter.pdf +
+ 1997-10-27 KES-bb to Susan Heagney 1 - KES-bb CV - SELF-DIAGNOSIS.pdf +
+ 1997-10-27 KES-bb to Susan Heagney 2 - POLICE RECORDS.pdf +
+ 1997-10-27 KES-bb to Susan Heagney 3 - SILENCE OF THE LAMBS.pdf +
+ 1997-10-27 KES-bb to Susan Heagney 4 - KES-bb SET LIST - "CLARICE" AND JOHN MONEY.pdf +
+ 1997-10-27 KES-bb to Susan Heagney 5 - MEDICINAL CANNABIS.pdf +
+ 1997-10-27 KES-bb to Susan Heagney 6 - KES-bb HIGH SCHOOL WRITINGS.pdf +
+ 1997-10-27 KES-bb to Susan Heagney 7 - KES-bb HYPERGRAPHIA.pdf +
+ 1997-10-27 KES-bb to Susan Heagney 8 - KES-bb MUSIC.pdf +
+ 1997-10-27 KES-bb to Susan Heagney CSW - Letters with Attachments.pdf +
+ 1997-10-27_Susan_Heagney.pdf +
+ 1997-10-31 KES-bb to Susan Heagney.pdf +
+ 1997-10-31_Susan_Heagney.pdf +
+ 1998-03-19 Dr. Kennedy - Susan Hamann - annotated (to Joanne).pdf +
+ 1998-03-19 John Kennedy 330-20 evaluation.pdf - Kennedy reproduces Povinelli boilerplate from Millon NPD HIGH SCORE analysis - MCMI-III NAZIMETRICS - Screen Shot 2018-03-19 at 6.44.06 AM - trimmed.png +
+ 1998-08-24 KES-bb - AUTOBIOGRAPHY and TREATMENT GOALS.pdf +
+ 1999-02-12 Board of Elections - Right to Vote - Incompetence.pdf +
+ 1999 - BARB - Catbert - Evil HR Director - You Must Hire a Sockpuppet - NO POT FOR YOU.pdf +
+ 2000-05-22 BARB - KES-mCPP Effects, Metabolism.pdf +
+ 2000-05-24 BARB - KES-CYP2D6 Trazodone - mCPP.pdf +
+ 2000-06-03 3WayTrainWreck v1.0 - To Whom It May Concern - mCPP.png +
+ 2000-06-03 KES-bb To Whom It May Concern.pdf +
+ 2000-06-30 BARB -> Scott Miller - TIMELINE.pdf +
+ 2000-04-29 BARB - Lifetime Relationship History for Linda Riley LMHC - TCMH - EPC - OMH - signed.pdf +
+ 2002-03-24 AnneMarie Whelan to Richard Wenig Esq MHLS in support of AnneRose Blayk f-k-a Kevin Eric Saunders.pdf +
+ 2002-04-26 ER Urine - PCP-1050 ordered.pdf +
+ 2002-04-26 - Health Care Proxy for Kevin Saunders : bonze blayk - Alice Richardson.jpg + Alice cajoled me into signing off on this Health Care Proxy after urging me - I felt unnecessarily? to go to the hospital for my physical health.
+ 2002-04-27 Cayuga Medical Center ER-Admission.pdf +
+ 2002-05-10 BARB - CMC Malpractice (from dataComet document).pdf +
+ 2002-05-21 MY TOP FIVE VALUES - Kevin Eric Saunders-bonze blayk - trimmed - small.jpg +
+ 2002-05-08 EPC - Tara Belsare MD OUTPATIENT admission - AnneRose Blayk f-k-a Kevin E Saunders SSA Medical Records - Elmira Psychiatric - Belsare - SSA A8001001A09F19B75412C89624.pdf +
+ 2002-05-23 EPC Tara Belsare MD 600mg DOSAGE Trileptal prescribed for AnneRose Blayk - PARANOID REFUSAL OF MEDICATION OVERDOSE.jpg + NB: Trileptal was a new antiepileptic drug
+ 2002-05-23 Notes on Meeting with Dr. Tara Belsare - signed.pdf +
+ 2002 - bb notes on Belsare-0.tif +
+ 2002-06-27 - Bonze Anne Rose Blayk to NY MHLS Correspondence - courts.state.ny.us - Save As RTFD comes up OUT OF DATE ORDER - RESORT COPY.pdf +
+ 2002-06-28 OSX-connections.2 - SHARED WITH EPC OUTPATIENT TREATMENT - dataComet-X.tiff +
+ 2003-02-12 PROPOSED SUBDIVISION OF NO. 1654 TRUMANSBURG ROAD - Storage Units smack adjacent to 1668 Trumansburg.pdf +
+ 2003-02-12 PROPOSED SUBDIVISION OF NO. 1654 TRUMANSBURG ROAD - Storage Units smack adjacent to 1668 Trumansburg - ZONING OVERLAY.pdf + OVER 150 feet OUT OF THE ZONE
+ 2003-03-05 - dataComet-Secure Site License offer to NASA HQ.pdf + - To upgrade their existing site license - $20,000 - shared with EPC
+ 2003-03-14 EPC Forensic Evaluation with Paul Thaddeus Povinelli PhD - Tara Belsare MD proclaims novel diagnosis of Paranoid Schizophrenia for AnneRose Blayk - PLACEHOLDER.rtf +
+ 2003-03-17 - MCMI-III NARCISSISM - Tara Belsare MD - PSYCHOPATH per Kevin Field - dom-switch - -sence- misspelling while posturing in BDSM-themed taunt as -firstname.lastname@example.org- - Screen Shot 2018-04-14 at 1.26.52 PM.png + - What it says.
+ 2003-03-17 PROPOSED SUBDIVISION OF NO. 1654 TRUMANSBURG - Purchased Maguire Family Partnership LLC 40,000 - Tompkins County Assessment Office - 1658 Trumansburg Rd - Property Description Report - Municipality of Ulysses - Image Mate Online.pdf +
+ 2003-03-18 - Draft Town of Ulysses Board of Zoning Appeals Public Hearing and Meeting - March 18, 2003 - Tim Maguire, Maguire Family Partnership LLC - NIMBY Protest.pdf +
+ 2003-03-25 - Town of Ulysses - Board of Zoning Appeals - Public Hearing and Meeting - bza03252003.html + Tim Maguire, Maguire Family Partnership LLC - NIMBY Protest
+ 2003-04-01 - PCP HALLUCINATIONS - Bipolar disorder explained: mania and hypomania defined - Black Dog Institute.pdf +
+ 2003-04-01 - PCP HALLUCINATIONS - Bipolar disorder explained: mania and hypomania defined - Black Dog Institute - web.png +
+ 2003-04-01 Northeast Regional Climate Center - Ithaca NY History - Daily temperature graph for the month of April 2003 - Screen Shot 2018-04-29 at 8.38.23 AM.png +
- The "Secret KGB Alien Abduction Files" is the show that turned up on the History Channel (?) after I got blasted by the PCP I most definitely DID NOT request in my pot? NOT TO WONDER, I BEGAN OBSESSING OVER AN ALIEN INVASION - OF EARTH! (PS: This is obviously a disinformation op intended to spook Russian adversaries into believing ZOMG THE RUSSKIES HAVE OBTAINED ACCESS TO "Gear Of Alien Origin!," but it's pretty impressive if you're ripped on PCP? LOL.)
+ 2003-04-01 KES-bb Hospitalization Notes PCP Takedown - DELUSIONAL SYSTEMS - signed.pdf +
+ 2003-04-02 PCP PYRAMID BUILDERS - And amazingly the Great Pyramid lies in the exact center of the Earth's landmass.png +
+ 2003-04-02 PCP PYRAMID BUILDERS - Secret KGB Alien Abduction Files - Alien Mummy - Screenshot_20180430-200717.png +
+ 2003-04-02 PCP PYRAMID BUILDERS - Secret KGB Alien Abduction Files - Communist Troops - Screenshot_20180430-201034.png +
+ 2003-04-02 PCP PYRAMID BUILDERS - Secret KGB Alien Abduction Files - HOOKERS - Screenshot_20180430-205106.png +
+ 2003-04-02 PCP PYRAMID BUILDERS - Secret KGB Alien Abduction Files - Mystic Levitation - Screenshot_20180430-204456.png +
+ 2003-04-02 PCP PYRAMID BUILDERS - Secret KGB Alien Abduction Files - ORION - Screenshot_20180430-204249.png +
+ 2003-04-02 PCP PYRAMID BUILDERS - Secret KGB Alien Abduction Files - scan lines - Screenshot_20180430-200147.png +
+ 2003-04-02 PCP PYRAMID BUILDERS - Secret KGB Alien Abduction Files - scan lines - Screenshot_20180430-200416.png +
+ 2003-04-04 PCP - Wet, naked, two pairs of handcuffs - OVERHEATING - Screenshot_20180324-175933.png +
+ 2003-04-04 Bangs Ambulance to EPC Records.pdf +
+ 2003-04-04 Cayuga Medical Center INVOICE for ER - PCP-1050 test - CONTRAST.pdf +
+ 2003-04-04 Cayuga Medical Center Records - scrunched.pdf +
+ 2003-04-04 Trumansburg Ambulance to Cayuga Med Center Records.pdf +
+ 2003-04-05 EPC Patient Orientation Handbook.pdf +
+ 2003-04-05 Rights of Inpatients IN NEW YORK STATE OFFICE OF MENTAL HEALTH PSYCHIATRIC CENTERS.pdf +
+ 2003-04-08 EPC Povinelli - Spiked & Seizing - _Uncinate Seizures_ - PCP - Sex F.jpg +
+ 2003-04-10 -Q15- My Wake-Up Call - BARB poetry.png + Q15 is the fifteen-minute staff drill for "close observation" so they open your door and wake you up
+ 2003-04-10 - 2003-05-01 - BARB - KES-bb EPC Hospitalization Notes - signed.pdf +
+ 2003-04-16 April Roberts MD - TOO.pdf +
+ 2003-04-24 - Hayden p42 - April Roberts - labeled small.jpg + THOU SHALT NOT BEAR FALSE WITNESS
+ 2003-04-24 KES Release Application Hearing - Elmira - signed v1.pdf +
+ 2003-04-24 Release Application Hearing - KES-bb NOTES.pdf +
+ 2003-04-26 EPC - Gender Identity Order - Cover Photo.jpg + - best. diagnosis. ever.
+ 2003-05-06 KES-bb Hospitalization Notes cont.pdf +
+ 2003-05-08 William Connor PhD - scrunched - signed.pdf +
"EVIDENCE"† evidence - of… "Whaaat?" LOL
+ 2003-05-27 Recommitment exhibits in evidence incl KES:bb letter of 1997-10-27.tiff +
+ 1997-10-27 KES-bb to Susan Heagney 0 - Letter.pdf +
The inclusion of my letter of October 27, 1997 as evidence in my "Recommitment Hearing" to "support" the claim that I was "Dangerously Mentally Ill"
is so astonishing - given that I was almost entirely correct in my assertions, as borne out by HISTORY? - I feel compelled to include it here.
THERE WILL BE A BRIEF INTERRUPTION IN THE FLOW OF THIS TIMELINE! THANK YOU!
MS. COCCHIOLA: I show you what's been marked as People's Exhibit 2. Do you recognize that?
AnneRose: Mm-mm (yes).
MS. COCCHIOLA: I'm going to offer People's Exhibit 2.
October 27, 1997
1668 Trumansburg Rd.
Ithaca, NY 14850-9213
Rochester Psychiatric Center
Regional Forensic Unit
1111 Elmwood Ave.
Rochester, NY 14620-3005
Dear Ms. Heagney,
Here are the notes from Dr. Matusiewicz and Ellen Stotz, along with some journal articles on Geschwind Syndrome and an extensive collection of personal material which helps establish my diagnosis as Temporal Lobe Epilepsy with a seizure focus on the left side (my writing and songwriting amply document relevant symptoms including hypergraphia, anger, chronic mild paranoia, and intense philosophical/religious pre-occupation-including revelatory religious states). The source code for dataComet is the ultimate proof of hypergraphia; it's copyrighted and contains trade secrets proprietary to databeast, Inc. and Cornell University, so I can't share it. I intend to bring along a copy to at least one interview to give you some idea of the size and complexity of the code.
In my opinion the instant offense occurred during a classic attack of schizophreniform post-ictal psychosis (cf. Slater et. al. "The schizophrenia-like psychoses of epilepsy", Br. J. Psychiatry, 1963;109:95-150) following seizures prompted by extreme stress [AnneRose 5/22/18: but see the primary influence of the "phantom hallucinogen" mCPP in the picture: A Three-Way Train Wreck on P450IID6], use of psychotropic medications as prescribed (Prozac and Trazodone), and abstention from self-medication using cannabis (an effective anti-convulsant medication; note that withdrawal from legal anti-convulsants can also induce seizures). During the four months over which I completely abstained from cannabis while on Prozac (2/97 - 5/97) I had my first experience of disabling hypomania (including flight of ideas and intense suicidal preoccupation), indicating that delirium due to serotonin syndrome may also have been a factor in my behavior on 2/6/97.
My stress and tendency to paranoia was of course dramatically intensified due to these truths, which I know as a certainty and from which I will not budge: that
1) I was DWI 12/22/96 only because I was given a spiked drink, [TRUE]
2) Sgt. Curatolo nearly rear-ended me in order to provoke me to speed
(see the transcript of his testimony, which strongly supports my position), [TRUE]
3) There was no sexual or other assault on Susan Hamann 12/29/96, rather I had good grounds to believe our activities were consensual, [TRUE] and
4) I never threatened to do physical harm of any sort to Sgt. Curatolo. [TRUE]
The police were indeed following me around on the evening of 2/6/97, for reasons I could not comprehend except as part of a (non-existent) "larger plot", since I was unaware that the Ithaca Police Department had issued a alert (12/30/96) claiming I had made a "threat against a police officer" in which I supposedly vowed "to kill Sgt. Curatolo at the earliest opportunity." I was not allowed to legally communicate in any way with Susan Hamann due to an Order of Protection from that date, which was issued pursuant to Susan's false claims (PTSD strikes again!), so I could not correct my delusional misapprehensions regarding her possible relationship to Clarice Starling ("Silence of the Lambs", Thomas Harris) without committing a Class F felony.
Indeed, since I had no countervailing sources of data, was not allowed to contact Susan, and had been cut off from therapeutic counselling, my beliefs at that time cannot even be described as truly "delusional"; I could have been stopped at any point along my course with the "stroke of a feather": you'll note that I have been invariably described as "cooperative" by the police, and that indeed this was held against me as evidence that I was "rational" by legal standards and possessed the criminal _mens rea_ at the time of the arson.
The irony is that the arson occurred only as a result of an incredible string of coincidences, beginning with my first reading of Silence of the Lambs on 2/3/97, building to the point at which I experienced congruent auditory hallucinations beginning midnight 2/6/97, and culminating in the (real) presence of a three-foot tall three-fingered left hand in Susan's trailer across from a can of inflammable material neatly set on the floor, resting on mirrors, below three hat-racks with summer hats set on their tops, a tableaux which is chilling if you consider its relationship to the 5-fingered Hannibal Lecter and the "tableaux" which are a prominent theme in the Silence of the Lambs. You cannot comprehend the fear I felt without reading the book, in which Susan's character and characteristics nicely fit the character of Clarice Starling (to the extent of having actually used the key image of Clarice self-referentially without referring to it as a source-Clarice as crow, distracted by shiny things without value), and accepting that I *really* believed at the time that Hannibal Lecter actually existed and had threatened to unleash biotoxins based on anthrax, and possessed a clear and deep understanding of the horrifying ramifications which would ensue if such a threat were carried out.
I later figured out that Hannibal Lecter was, indeed, so convincing because he was based in large part on a real doctor, fortunately a humanitarian: Dr. John Money, forensic sexologist and pediatric neuroendocrinologist. I've also been able to speak with Susan since the Order of Protection expired at the end of June, and I believe her disavowal of any connection whatsoever with either the book or with the FBI (she put it this way: "No... I always wanted to work for the CIA, though!" Evidently her quotation was unconscious, since she had been given the book but did not recall reading it).
Please note that I reject all diagnoses that claim I suffer from Bipolar I Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, current Alcohol Abuse, and Cannabis Dependence. I believe my chronic light use of cannabis (preferring .25-.5 gm/day of "commercial" sativa, relatively low in psychoactive THC content and relatively high in non-psychoactive anti-convulsant CBD content) [BOLD ADDED] has been an appropriate and medically justifiable (if largely unwitting) means of coping with the unpleasant psychological and physical symptoms I suffer, which include not only the symptoms of TLE but also symptoms associated with MS or polyneuropathy (most remarkably the progressive distal and occipital parasthesia and accompanying confusional states which practically disabled me early in January 1997).
Also, contrary to claims that I "reject the frame of self-medication" (Amari Meader) and reject scientific research on cannabis as "all govt-political" (Fran Markover), I have consistently maintained to my therapists from my first session with Dr. Matusiewicz that I am self-medicating, and that the preponderance of scientific research and reputable medical opinion supports the claim that chronic cannabis use is less harmful to human health than use of tobacco, alcohol, or benzodiazepines, while having notable therapeutic benefits. Current authoritative support for this position includes the British Medical Association, the American Public Health Association, the National Association of Addictions Nurses, and the editorial boards of Lancet, JAMA, and the NEJM, along with reporting committees established by the NIH and the AMA. [BOLD ADDED]
Sorry about getting this out a little late, and the volume of the material involved, but I'd like the record to be complete, and proof of hypergraphia must by definition be abundant!
Kevin Eric Saunders a/k/a bonze blayk
1) Notes by Anna Matusiewicz, M.D.
2) Notes by Ellen Stotz, M.S.W.
3) Material regarding diagnosis of TLE on the basis of inter-ictal personality disorders and medicinal applications of cannabis relevant to the condition.
4) Materials pertinent to the arson offense (including excerpts from Sgt. Curatolo's testimony under oath and analysis of Silence of the Lambs gathered from the WWW 2/5/97).
5) KES/bb CV and documents regarding self-diagnosis.
6) KES/bb letters and articles (documenting hypergraphia with heavily philosophical content).
7) KES/bb musical materials:
a) Lyrics (moralistic philosophizing in a poetic context).
b) "Auld l'Anxiety" tape (which also establishes my competence with audio technologies, relevant to my accepting the "radio messages" as technically feasible communications).
c) Live videotape, including a performance of "Burnin' for You" from 1995 (also documenting my "peculiar", "affected" patterns of speech outside therapeutic contexts).
8) Photographs (please cf. the family portrait with Susan every time you note a reference to Clarice Starling's physical appearance in Silence of the Lambs-particularly her hair!).
And? A certain psychiatrist claimed I suffered from
"grandiose persecutory delusions: He believes that pharmaceutical manufacturers conspire to keep marijuana off the market" - but guess what?
SO DOES SENATOR KIRSTEN GILLIBRAND! - in Forbes magazine: "Senator Calls Out Big Pharma For Opposing Legal Marijuana" - I was ahead of the curve.
And I have to ask - why did the "mental health" apparatus keep throwing me spitballs when I offered up evidence of what my working life was like, and actual, for-real, reasonably reliable scientific evidence of the utility of cannabis in ameliorating a variety of health conditions?
"Could it be? Maybe? Just possibly? Look, is it not obvious? … it's a fucking conspiracy!" - They brought the Big Lie against me in claiming that I had "a long history of extreme violence against women," and I want to know WHY.
In the popular mind,
"Extreme violence pertains to excessive amounts of blood, gore, or violent acts. These include decapitation, mutilation, dismemberment, disembowelment, torture and much more." - Giant Bomb
I want the entirety of their secret stash of internal records "on my case" opened up for the world to see:
"What's burning a city - compared to tearing the lid off hell and letting men see it?" - Francisco d'Anconia.
--- Atlas Shrugged, p. 122, Ayn Rand. ---
- Bonze Anne Rose Blayk - May 28, 2018
PS: "There are no coincidences," except when there
are? The "tendency to perceive connections and meaning between unrelated things"
may be a symptom of the early development of schizophrenia known as apophenia.
An apophany (i.e., an instance of apophenia) does not provide insight into
the nature of reality nor its interconnectedness,
but is a "process of repetitively and monotonously experiencing abnormal meanings in the entire surrounding experiential field".
Such meanings are entirely self-referential, solipsistic, and paranoid - "being observed, spoken about, the object of eavesdropping, followed by strangers".
- "A subject of malicious gossip? In Ithaca? Surely you either jest, or have gone mad!"
(One can readily imagine just how invaluable this concept would prove to the Stasi.)
Now, one might think - similar to modifying the electronics in your computer and finding that it's crashing a lot? - that if you take a psychiatric medication and then suffer from a "mental illness" immediately thereafter, those might be connected, but no! - you just experienced a mental illness, so - "That would be a ridiculous idea! You're just being paranoid, and are now suffering from a SEVERE mental illness, so you REALLY need help!"
LOL on braindead posers posturing as providers of "scientific medicine."
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† As I have elsewhere stated, three words summarizing my character are "flaming, cute, and hyperbolic!" Having been subjected to an episode of severe hacking of my core business computer back in October of 2014, conducted for purposes of bringing psychological warfare on me - rather than the more conventional hijacking of one's machine as an engine for propagating spam or straightforward destruction … - I chose thereafter to "cast the net wide," and thus have brazenly tagged any parties who might have been responsible, even deep in the background, to bring them within a field of inquiry, without the forms of qualification and circumspection one would expect in the realms of polite discourse? And so I beg the indulgence of any parties who might feel offended by my intemperate language or extravagant denunciations; particular labels can serve as tags that may provide insight into the peculiar stylistic traits or modus operandi which distinguish groups involved in antisocial activities, such as bringing cyberwar and other kinds of "social poisoning" against members of our body politic. In summary: Looking over this timeline, boy, something(s) really stinks here, and it ain't just me and my tendency to go Full Dada! on it when confronted with a pile of steaming bullshit! - LOL
"The gift for spotting the salient detail is at the core of the art of debugging." - bonze blayk
Amusing, no? Well at least I try, unlike some people! LOL
Sincerely, AnneRose Blayk
THE LITTLE HITLER LIBRARY - SUGGESTED READING LIST
The Status Seekers - Vance Packard
Or maybe you prefer Thorstein Veblen, or Nassim Nicholas Taleb, or other researchers relating how people tend to seek high-status roles even when it's killing them (or others).
Hitler's Table Talks - Martin Bormann
There's a researcher who claims that NSDAP #2 man Martin Bormann (or historian Hugh Trevor-Roper) was chock full of shit in claiming these "inspirational lectures by The Man Himself" are accurate? "Whatever."
Our Hitler: A Film from Germany - Hans-Jürgen Syberberg
An 8-hour long meditation - a FILM! - relating how the "Hitler Industry" distorts NSDAP messaging, how inspirational propaganda was crafted using the most modern technologies, and how the shame of WWII undermined the idealism which had been characteristic of the national spirit of Germany, promoting a decline into crass commercialization and consumerism.
Iron Coffins - Herbert A. Werner
You thought the NSDAP was out to WIN this war? This sounds reasonable, but why were all the WunderWaffen promised to the military - like the Schnorkel - always LATE? Why on earth did Adolf Hitler commence a two-front war some six YEARS before Admiral Raeder's building program for the Kriegsmarine was to be complete? (1945)
The Kriegsmarine never had enough submarines to have a good shot at prevailing in the war at sea.
A heartbreaking memoir of the war by a master sailor and submariner who graduated to the command of his own vessel.
Advance to Barbarism - F.J.P. Veale
OK, some claim ("ThreeArrows" on YouTube) that recent studies help rebut the characterization of the bombing of Dresden as a war crime, and that the enormous numbers previously mooted were based on NSDAP propaganda, so that the casualties "only" amounted to about 30,000 dead.
Nevertheless, the exchange of atrocities against civilians in WWII on all sides was morally reprehensible under the laws traditionally held to govern warfare in western culture (specifically Christian Just War doctrine).
Nazi Nexus - Edwin Black
Punchy: A host of American corporations cooperated with the NSDAP in supplying their Engines of War and Extermination - including IBM/Thomas J. Watson, where the advanced tab machine/punchcard-based tecnologies provided by the Dehomag subsidiary of IBM were crucial both to implementing the Holocaust, and the property transfers that kept "Authentic" Germans on the gravy train. Read it.
They Thought They Were Free: The Germans, 1933-45 - Milton Mayer
My brother sent me this one; years after the war, some village folk were still believing that the cause of the NSDAP was justified, in particular, burning down the local synagogue? "Huh."
Hitler's Beneficiaries - Götz Aly
"Authentic" Volkische Germans benefitted from the war, as the economies of conquered territories were systematically pillaged by the imposition of exploitative banking practices and outright theft.
"World War II was the biggest smash-and-grab in history." - AnneRose Blayk
Hitler's Philosophers - Yvonne Sheratt
Yvonne Sheratt demonstrates that Adolf Hitler started out by recruiting academic philosophers to the cause of the NSDAP. A horror story.
Where the rubber meets the road in life: philosophy! "Sometimes that rubber is the one prominent academic cleansing artist Martin Heidegger used on Hannah Arendt." (discuss)
From the standpoint of any sincere ethicist, Heidegger's "Authenticity" is rubbish: Authentically human? - what? - "Human beings tend to lie a lot; thus, the embrace of The Big Lie is of all aspirations, the most 'truly human!'"
(Did Goebbels write that? No. Does not Heidegger so imply? "Beats me!")
You think by the mannerisms in my writing that perhaps I am "read up" in Nietzsche?
- "Danke schön!" ;-)
Bonze Anne Rose Blayk - 27 May 2018
NB: I use the abbreviation NSDAP for "the Nazi Party," because there are a lot of people out there who will identify themselves as Nazis, but do not accept that the NSDAP was about Exterminationism above all else, and even believe the Holocaust was all a hoax? Sadly, I myself do not believe that is the case.
So: When I talk about Hitler's party and its goals, I try to remain specific: it's the "National Socialist German Workers' Party," in German: "Nationalsozialistische Deutsche Arbeiterpartei," abbreviated NSDAP.
And: The Big Lie of the Adolf Hitler's "National Socialist Party" is that it was in truth 1) Internationalist and 2) Corporatist.
Updated 3/14/16, 3/7/18, 5/27/18, 11/12/18